New Years Resolutions!

Yes, 'tis the new year...'tis 2015!

And I just realized that I never put up my New Years Resolutions! :9

So let's get down to business, yes??

1. GO TO JAPAN WITH SOMEONE
2. EARN ENOUGH MONEY TO MAKE #1 POSSIBLE
3. Decide who to go to Japan with
4. Save at least $1,000 for a shopping spree (Hopefully in Japan!)
5. LEARN THE FREAKIN' JAPANESE LANGUAGE
6. Stop making all my resolutions Japan-oriented
7. DO SOMETHING that is truly productive
8. Get a freakin' passport, just 'cause I really should have one whether #1 is happening or not
9. Make friends (AKA stop being so stupidly shy!)
10. Make progress with my mental problems... like more than I've already done
11. Stop sounding so angry when I type (which seems to be my habit for 2015)

Soooo, basically, I wanna go to Japan and spend a ton of money that isn't my parents', and learn how to function in society properly. 

The Saga of a Girl Who Wants to Go to Japan: vol 1

あ、私の　日本語を　大半　我流でした。いいえ。。。　私の　日本語を　大半　我流です。　私は　日本を　行く　ほしい。。。でも　私は　お金を　ありません。。。えと、　お金を　あります。　でも　私は　十分お金を　ありません。＾＾；

だから、　私は　本当、本当、日本を　行く　ほしい。でも、　私が　できません。

To put it simply, I'm kinda in need of money so that I can take myself, and my good friend, to Japan.

Therefore, PLEASE, BUY SOMETHING! My shop may not have a whole lot in it at the moment, it it has stuff! And I worked hard making everything... -3-

(also, please excuse my probably horrible Japanese... but, hey, I need to practice!)

Well, so much for storenvy... :P

Yeah, uh, as the title says, I no longer use storenvy... Due to my distrusting nature and whatnot. ^^;

To put it simply, they asked for information that I was not willing to give.

So, now I'm on Etsy!

At the moment, as in, right as I'm typing this, there are only 5 things in the shop. But they are some of my favorite things that I have made, and thus, I feel that they should sell... eventually. ^^;

So... Yeah... CHECK MY NEW STORE OUT!

https://www.etsy.com/shop/HidingMyLove

Something I'm Thankful For... (Belated Thanksgiving Post)

As you all may know, I'm not exactly 'normal'... In my hobbies or my fashion style. But, my family has almost always supported me in my weird endeavors. And if they didn't at first,  they eventually did, simply because they're nice people. 

Even my extended family, whether I'm talking about grandma/grandpas/cousins/aunts/uncles/ or my super close friends (who I consider family), even they accepted it, even though many of them didn't fully understand it. 

A part of me thinks that the only reason they accepted everything so simply is because they, themselves, already have enough weirdness to deal with... but another part thinks that it's also because they really do love and care about me. And so, for that, I'm thankful.

One of my cousins is a complete comic-book geek, not manga, comic-books. And, he actually works as a letterer for some comics (Nothing big... yet). He also has a business of making things out of old comic-books, like a cute bracelet he made for me one Christmas, though he normally makes things like wallets and buttons. But I digress, my point is that he was already in the 'otaku culture', so he knew about cosplay. So, but of course, when I came to him, dressed in lolita, he decided that it was cosplay, and still, to this day, I think, believes that it's a costume/ me pretending to be someone else. But, he accepts it as part of me. Even though he doesn't fully understand it.

In a somewhat related note, my grandparents also don't fully understand it, but, sadly, I think have a better grasp on it than my cousin. I think this because my grandparents were alive in the 50s and stuff, an era in which petticoats and big skirts were a normal thing, though the skirts weren't quite as big as ours. Also, my grandparents are able to see the influence of past eras in lolita fashion, For instance, one time, I came down in lolita while my grandparents were over, and my grandma exclaimed, with stars in her eyes, "She looks like my grandmother!"

And then, there are my otaku friends. Some of which almost fully understand lolita, very few of which are actually into lolita fashion, but are scared to attempt it, and some of which view it as a form of lolicon... UGH. Naturally, I have the most difficulty with the last ones (and aren't really friends with them...).

And my lolita friends/community are for a whole other thing.

And here is a ramble-y video that seems to tell my entire infant lolita life-story

I keep trying to sew... XD (big sewing/shop update)

I have taken a major step in my fashion designer life... I have begun to sell shirts I made, on storenvy... Only thing is... I've yet to sell ANYTHING that I've made, my polymer clay accessories included! So, to put it simply, no one seems to want them.

Naturally, because I'm paranoid, I automatically assume that this means that my stuff is not up to par. SO, now I'm wondering if I should even keep going, but that's not what this is about... This is about my eternal struggle with my mom's old sewing machine/ my lack of technique.

My mom's sewing machine is old, not as old as the only other sewing machine I can use is, but it is old. It's, like, from the 80s or something. (The other one is my grandma's and thus at least around 10 years older, I think...) But the problem isn't that it's old... The problem is that it's simply designed and not made for as much sewing as I do... It's about as simple as you can get, and it had never been used for more than fixing a little rip in some jeans, or something, before I got my hands on it. So, I think I've just about killed the poor thing.

But that's enough of me complaining about my mom's sewing machine.

I have another problem... I'm not capable of going to school for fashion design since all my options, as far a schools go, are too far away and/or expensive. And as a result, I am completely self-taught. Leaving much to be desired in my technique, I'll be the first to admit it, everything I make, is made rather sloppily. But I just keep on trying... 

Why?

Because this is one of the few things I'm good at, one of the few things that inspire me, that make me happy, and that can keep my small attention span's attention. 

I think that's enough about me... XD

Lemme show you the latest items for sale in my store! ('Cause I'm shameless like that!)

< This one was my first attempt at 'normal-ish' clothes... The result was a tank-top that was made of thick fuzzy/furry material... So basically, the result was a shirt that made no sense, but was cute.
 To the bottom left is the second one, this one made more sense... It has light, stretchy materials, and is short-sleeved, making it good for warmer weather (Meanwhile, I don't know what kind of weather you could wear the above one in).
And then came another nonsensical tank-top. Again, it was made using heavy fabrics(though not as heavy this time), denim. And this was my first attempt at some kind of tailoring, with some dart-like thingymabobbers. And then, because it felt empty, I added a giant heart  made of sparkly netting and some random purple ribbon... Yeah... I probably would've been better off with only one of those, instead of both.

Now it's time to show my lovely models wearing them~!

  -cough-you mean your best friend and you-cough-

As always, these are available at my storenvy store: http://kidforocks.storenvy.com/ 

Long Overdue, Negative Review (ilovecirclelenses.com)

I have always been a faithful, loyal person... When I find something that works, I stick to it.

However, I feel that I should address this issue, even though, for all I know, it could be fixed by now.

ilovecirclelenses.com, to put it simply, sort of betrayed my trust. After years of orders, great orders with excellent shipping, they seemed to disappear from the face of the earth. And after ordering with them again, for what ended up being the last time, that's when it happened.

Now, I don't wish to particularly discredit them, I just want to warn others.

Back, waaaay back, around May, I ordered my lenses from them. I thought that all was well... but I was wrong. After many days, past the amount of time that it would've normally taken for the lenses to get to me, nothing had happened. So, naturally, I contacted them. They said nothing. So I contacted them again, and again, the last time telling them that I wanted to avoid opening a paypal dispute, but may have no choice but to. That got their attention. They sent me a tracking number, which I stalked for a day or two... only to have nothing happen. So, I contacted them again. And got nothing. 

Throughout all of this, I gave them the benefit of the doubt, because, like I said earlier, I'm a loyal person who believes that "If it's not broke, don't fix it!"

And thus, the paypal battle began... Which is seriously overly dramatic since ilovecirclelenses did nothing. They didn't answer paypal. They said and did nothing once the dispute opened. And after a while, paypal gave up and just gave me my money back...

Sooo, yeah. Just warnin' ya, ilovecirclelenses.com pretty much doesn't exist anymore last time I checked... the website is there... but it doesn't seem like there is anyone working there anymore. :/

New York is kinda stupid sometimes... :/

I know, it's an abnormally mean title coming from me... or anyone, in my opinion.
BUT the New York City Subway System is rather stupid. (Thank God for friendly homeless people!)

Two of my friends, my mom, and I went to New York this past weekend, yeah? Well, it'd been a while since we had been on the subway in New York (which, by the way, is, like, the least user-friendly subway system out of the three cities I've been to that have subways/metros/whatevers... aka, LA and DC and NYC), and we were sooo lost. I knew which train we wanted to take, and what station we were going to get off on, but we didn't know what kind of ticket to buy... There were three kinds: Single-Ride; Metro-Card; and Quick Metro-Card. We were stupid and bought single rides, completely unaware that each credit card was limited to only two per day... We had four people and two cards, so we managed to get to the Btssb store... but we didn't know that, because of this stupid rule, we were going to end up trapped in the 2 Ave. Station, trying to get back, but unable to. BUT THEN CAME OUR SAVIOR! A nice homeless man, who noticed that we were, obviously, tourists, and were, obviously, stuck, walked up to the ticket machine and started pushing buttons for us after asking us where we were trying to get to. And his help got us back to Times Square, which let us get back to the hotel!!!

 I wanted to hug that nice man! (But didn't due to stranger-danger instincts and the fact that both of us were drenched in sweat...) Sadly, we didn't have any money smaller than a $20 (which we were saving for food and stuff), and we felt bad that we couldn't give him some money for his help, but we had plenty of water bottles! :D  So, of course, we gave him the last cold one, and he smiled, thanking us and exclaiming, "You saw I was sweatin'!"

Sooo, yeah, New York, as a city? The subway system is totally stupid... and NOT USER-FRIENDLY!! D:
But the people, or well, at least those that care about New York's thriving tourism trade, or maybe just care about people, they're nice. And helpful!